so life has been crazy, at least this week. Monday I was way overwhelmed and just plain in need of a meeting. Tuesday, I spent the day at a great Teaching Writing Seminar, and felt re-juvenated as a teacher. But then last night I was stressed about the BTSA thing (that beginning teacher support thing) that I have to turn part 2 of 2 in ASAP. I cannot work on it at home -- I get too distracted online. That's what happens when you have great friends online and offline ... or when I'm just online. I think I just love procrastination, actually. Because as I see this little kid studying frantically not far from me, probably for a test tomorrow, I totally relate. I was that kid, never getting how to finish an essay or project early, never studying at all in school.
Since I started the program though, I noticed something. Yeah I still totally procrastinate. I have to have this thing in by 3pm tomorrow and I'm writing a blog, for pete's sake. But I *want* to do better right now. I am figuring out that I should do the individual events ahead of time, and then this wouldn't have been such a pain in my ass. I would've been able to play hours of GTA4 last night, which I'm determined to figure out. That's what I'm going to do ... and strangely, I just heard this dad of this kid say the same thing to his son..."Don't put things off, just get things over with..."I smile to myself and tell myself the same thing. The thing about AA, it's a program of action. Today I did that in my personal life by calling my oldest sister, instead of just thinking I should call her. We had a fantastic talk, me in my car, hustling down the freeway to the parents', where they still live in the 20th century with dial-up, which I have no patience for. And will therefore, be the greatest thing tonight when I get home to their house and have to do hours of work. We talked about our family, how we understand it and love the people in it, but that from the outside it wouldn't make sense at all. I love those talks. I'm grateful for that, and I'm impressed with myself for getting the bulk of this horrid paper done before 4pm. Baby steps. Every little thing matters.
I'm grateful but I'm also kinda suspicious that the boy behind the counter heard caffeinated and not decaf tonight. I have a feeling that I might be grateful for that before too long -- I might be able to finish this thing before too long yet. I hope. If not, at least I'm going to go back to doing work. Really. I am. :) Thanks for letting me share...and have a great night!
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Baby steps...
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Yay for baby steps. I'm glad you're finding a balance in all things. Let me know how that works out for you. 'Cause I feel like I don't procrastinate too much I just have so many things going on at once, I can't accomplish one of them (typing this comment and printing out WICIPs simultaneously). Maybe the one thing at a time is better. Or I need more distractions, like GTA4, which instead of buying, we got Rock Band...so, I'll have to help you with that later. Wow. Did I ramble enough? Miss you!
Haha, random thought, Mom was talking about Jane (I think it's Jane, sorry...) last night, and I was like "Who?" and she told me it was your oldest sister. Then we talked about Zita, who I knew was your sister, but yeah...crazy family connections.
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