It's Mother's Day, and I did the right thing by coming down here. It's been pretty good quality time so far with Mom. With Dad, it's a whole other story. Sobriety is rough around him - it's just hard because he's so grouchy and for so long, I've believed it was always a fault of mine. But what I've come to realize is that he is just very spoiled and set in his ways, and if something isn't going his way, he gets really upset and takes it out on me or my mom. That's hard. But that's how people are, and I know I've acted that way plenty of times. He was rude to me, and I just basically found strength, acceptance and serenity in myself and didn't react like I have my whole life. I'm very proud of myself. I'm learning and re-wiring, and so far it's working.
The Lakers are on, so I have to go watch. In my room. Where I can watch without anyone complaining about my enthusiasm - because that's who I am. I'll write more after the game's over. Depending on my mood of course...;)
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